I was thirty-nine years old when my husband died unexpectedly in his sleep. He was my love, my rock, a crucial part of my life and our children’s future, and in an instant, he was gone.
A few weeks after his death, I received a letter from my insurance company.
With time I pray that my fears and know I'm just going to have to give myself more time to heal and just let things happen in their own time.
The letter said that when you lose a spouse it is normal to want to date, usually sooner rather than later.
I felt guilty even thinking about the possibility and could not fathom the idea of dating so soon after my husband had died. I was worried you would never want to date again after Mark.
It seem's as if I live in one room & I cant seem to do anything but sit in this one room for over a yr. I Thought I was a strong woman, when my first husband had cancer we had been married 23 yr.s We had 3 beatiful daughter's But Curt my second husband Helped me raise my youngest but he was so funny & so postive about everything! With all the Bills, & Trying to do everything right! He totally understood and we decided to talk more over the phone and get to know each other better to make me feel more comfortable. WHEN MY HUSBAND PASSED AWAY WE HAD 2 LIL GIRLS AGES 4 AND 7 WE WENT TO GREIVING COUNSELING FOR A YEAR.
But Iam Just plain Lost & Waiting to screw something up! I know deep in my heart that I'm not ready for a serious relationship but need the company so terribly bad. BUT I FELT IT JUST MADE IT HARDER AND WORSER TO GET THREW.
And in time, if you wish, I hope that you’ll find someone new to share your life with.