As my wife and I started to grow apart after 19 years of marriage, the conflict between the desire to be happy, and the desire to honor the marriage started to collide. As we drifted apart, we began turning to external forces in order to maintain our sanity and marriage. I used to read about lonely housewives, now I was becoming one, a lonely house husband.
The thought of being married but alone is not something I was prepared to handle. You see, I don’t remember the exact point in time, perhaps 5 years into our marriage, but I started catching myself fantasizing about other women – sexually and otherwise.
Besides, I was desperate to smile, feel good again and fulfill my urges.
Wouldn’t you know it, there are dating sites filled with beautiful women who are willing to accept a man carrying a ball and chain. At least, I used to be before my personality took a sabbatical during the stagnant stages of my marriage. The first hundred or so sites (I am not kidding) that I tried were less than inspiring.
Feeding the hummingbirds, make my own nectar and I like flowers inside & out in the yard.